I currently am stuck in a place and in a situation where I’m forced to wait for something to happen. I’m really worried and I don’t understand what would make her do this to herself. I want to cry but I can’t, crying is extremely relieving…or maybe take some high dose of dee dee ecstasy pills to take this away. I feel numb and overflowing with emotions at the same time. Is this how it’s supposed to feel?
He left this in front of his laptop so when his video comes automatically on on Skype when call him, I’d see it . I tend to call just to see the bunny even when I know he’s at work.
When you go, would you have the guts to say, “I don’t love you, like I loved you yesterday?”
Telling someone you love to go away, to just go on with life without putting up a fight to make something work, is it really for the best when you’re hurting them and not to mention yourself? Would it really be such a hard task to stay and keep a promise? Something happens not because it was meant to be but because two people fixed every single crack and super glued everything together. One person will remain the same through sun and showers, knowing there’s someone holding them, it keeps them strong and steady. But when you let them go, the soul they loved you with, it’ll die from the fall.
I feel like I literally live in my boyfriend’s room now, I spend a lot of time with him, I pack my shit like I’m going somewhere really far for a long period of time when he’s about to pick me up. He gets me so excited. When I hear the door bell ring, I always think it’s him and I run to open the door every time. It’s a little silly, liking someone this much. I truly thought I would never love someone else, guess I thought wrong. There’s just so many things about him that I adore. He may seem so utterly insensitive sometimes but he’s not, he notices little details that others don’t, he just doesn’t show it most of the time. He’s really quiet, glad I don’t annoy him though, he listens to all the senseless crap I talk about inside the car, he hums to my music and kisses me on stop lights.